As it circles Madrid to the south, the M30 motorway emerges from the tunnel beneath the city and heads north-west across the middle of what was once the pitch at the Vicente Calderón, from box to box. Most of the ground has been demolished but one side is just about still standing, the shell of Atléticoâs former home. Thousands drive through daily; occasionally, Saúl Ã'Ãguez joins them. Some days he takes friends, aware it will soon be gone. âI tell them: âI scored right here,ââ he says. âSeeing it hit you. Itâs emotional.â
It is Sunday morning at Atléticoâs Cerro del Espino training ground, two days before the game that will define their season and possibly beyond, and there is a significance to the scene Saúl is replaying, like something was lost when they left. âOnly the main stand remains. My friends say âget a photoâ and I think: âLeave it there, people will come to see it, theyâll come.â Itâs unique, historic. The club needed to change, grow, and itâs hard to say this because weâre at the Metropolitano, which is more comfortable, but the Calderón was different: the magic it generated, the people. Special.
âI always say my best memory is a defeat. At the Calderón against Real Madrid: we won but we were knocked out. And yet the whole stadium stays, no one goes. Thereâs a deluge and all the Madrid fans have raincoats on. Ours are just in shirts, soaked, and they sing in the rain; support us, console us. And you think: âPfff, how can I ever not give everything for these people?ââ
That game in 2017 was Atléticoâs last European night at the Calderón, a Champions League semi-final. It hasnât been quite the same since, the concern now that it may not be just the stadium slipping into the distance. Saúl sees the shift, has suffered from it, but he resists. Atlético were finalists in 2014, quarter-finalists in 2015, finalists in 2016 â" âlosing that was the worst thing that can happen to you in your footballing life,â he says â" and semi-finalists in 2017, beaten by Madrid every time. Since then, they have not passed a knockout round and few expect them to do so against a team who may have better memories of their new stadium than they do. Liverpool claimed their sixth European Cup at the Metropolitano eight months ago.
That night at the Calderón, Diego Simeone said he wished he could âcloneâ players such as Diego GodÃn and Gabi Fernández, sensing an era coming towards the end. This season, that feeling is even more acute. Both have gone, and Saúl feels the absence of his former captain particularly keenly. Six players departed in the summer, including Griezmann and Rodri, and although Atlético spent almost â¬250m they had their worst start under Simeone. Twelve points behind in the league, out of the cup to third-tier Cultural Leonesa, Tuesday is all that is left.
For the first time, there are doubts about the man who Gazzetta dello Sport famously depicted as Che Guevara, their very own revolutionary. There is an unusual sense of drift in the stands, although there surely wonât be on Tuesday, and the feeling that Atlético are searching for an identity; a disconnect between what they always were and those signings suggest they should be, embodied by João Félix â" a slight, creative 20-year-old No 10 who cost â¬126m. If there was to be an evolution, it remains incomplete. Equally, something of what they were sometimes seems to be missing.
Saúl in action for Atlético earlier this month. Photograph: DeFodi Images/Getty ImagesListening to Saúl, someone is missing, the expression of that identity and the captain who allowed him to play his own game. Saúl knows there is a belief that he has stagnated, no longer the marauding midfielder set to lead club and country. In fact, on some levels he shares it; he also explains it, a hint that he has felt misunderstood, maybe even under-appreciated.
He is startlingly candid about the restrictions of responsibility, being âboredâ in some positions. He talks of the âneed to enjoy footballâ, to be âlet looseâ, released to run, but rejects the suggestion heâs at the wrong club. âA couple of years ago, I could do those things. Gabiâs intelligent, and although there are other players [now] who are better technically, he made teammatesâ jobs easier. I could play to enjoy it.
âBeing Gabi isnât easy: you have to cover everyone. And although people donât see it, I do that [now]. I feel Iâm doing it well. I have to help: on the left, the right, a lot of positions. The team comes first, even if individually Iâm not at the same level as two years ago. Iâm leaving parts of my game behind and I donât know that itâs a good thing because you stop enjoying it. Iâd like to focus on one position and improve there, learn.â
Maybe it is the security as much as the frustration that enables him to speak this clearly. âI have a long contract,â he says with a laugh. It runs until 2026, with a â¬150m (£125m) buyout clause. And, he says: âSimeone is the only one who values my work. I play almost every minute. He knows I suffer in positions that are not ideal for me, but he appreciates what I do and I canât say no to him. I can adapt to any style and Iâm grateful to the club: theyâve treated me like a member of the family since I was very young.â
Besides, if Saúl appears suited to a more expansive game, he also insists: âI donât think evolution is the path: we have to be what we always were, what allowed us to compete,â he says, his pace quickening into a manifesto, more passionate with every passage. âItâs a hard year, a transition. A lot of important people left. Important people came too but theyâre young, people who donât know the club and need to adapt. You have to feel it, believe in it. Donât think, go. Day after day after day after day, training, training, training until itâs automatic. And if we die, let it be with our own ideas.â
Sign up to The Recap, our weekly email of editorsâ picks.Saúl is still only 25, but a veteran now, one of four left from the final in Milan in 2016. If they are to return, they will need him. The Champions League is Atléticoâs only target and Liverpool are fearsome opponents that he analyses with depth and nuance. âThey have those perros de presa [hunting dogs] in the middle who run, press. Itâs not just running for the sake of running: they do things that arenât normal and it looks disordered but itâs ordered, mechanised,â he says. His kind of football, in other words.
âOne comes out here and you think: âThatâs mad, whyâs he there?ââ he says, marking positions. âBut the other man knows and comes from here. Klopp said they play with their heart, but itâs planned too. One breaks out to press, wild, but they follow. Itâs very hard to escape when they come at you like that. Itâs incredible: they press like animals, because they know that even if they get turned there will be seven of them running like mad to get back.
âLiverpool are very complete, a great team in every area [but] they find it hardest when youâre deep because theyâre very, very, very good in transition. I watched them against Norwich and if it wasnât for Manéâs extraordinary control, they donât win. Theyâve won lots of games they could have drawn or lost, which tells you something about what they have inside. Itâs not luck. Itâs work, sacrifice, not giving up a single ball for lost.â
And itâs frightening. European champions, top of the league having collected 103 of 105 points, there is pessimism in Madrid, but Saúl rebels. What do you do with stats such as Liverpoolâs? âYou break them,â he says.
Saúl on Spain duty in November. Photograph: Soccrates Images/Getty ImagesâThereâs no memory in football: what you did yesterday is no use. We had a good run before Christmas then we fell away and it was hard. People wanted to kill us. Do I think itâs unfair? Honestly, yes. But itâs life. People whistle Cholo, important players; the fans are demanding. If we win two or three games, itâll change again. We know how we can hurt Liverpool, their strengths and weaknesses, and we always compete against big teams. We have to make the most of the home game. There will be an incredible atmosphere, more than ever.â
But the Metropolitan still lacks something. âYeah: time,â Saúl replies. âThere have been few moments like at the old Calderón but itâs a great stadium, theyâre great people: itâs about epic games, comebacks, wins, big nights against big teams; thatâs what builds the magic.â
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